5/15/2007
7:45 pm
I slacked today. It's just not an excuse to do that just because of your mood and emotions. zzz I will not do that again, i promise ^.^
Mugging is acceptable in AJ, you know. Almost everyone mugs. If you don't mug you'll fall behind, in a way that's good... I'm rather glad that my new class is more hardworking than my prev class.
I joined Dance with no regrets. Before the SYF, I kept wondering.... did i made the right choice in coming to dance? Cuz you know practice is so tough and there's like so little time for studies. Now I am very clear that I made the right choice. In order for anything to be meaningful, you have to put in hard work and suffer.....LOTS.
I realised I grew into a stronger person after the SYF. Made me realise how it feels like to get the fruits of your labour for the 1st time. I learnt how to discipline myself now, especially in coping with schoolwork. (I promise myself today will be the last day i slack off like this >.<) I feel much happier now that life has more meaning. You know you get that 'shuang' feeling after completing your homework. This is llike the 1st time in my life where i'm motivate to work. Dance has also brought back sweet memories of st.margs cuz our cca consists of only girls so we talk and gossip about girl stuff, it's rather enjoyable. In fact I might say the experience in Dance so far is even better than St. MArgs. Cuz everyone is treated equally here, and no one wants to harm anyone, no one wants to gain power, we are just 1 big happy family.
I know that there are many more trials to come. especially in my cca. I'm really hoping that when i join the other j1s, we are 1 big happy family too. I'm kinda worried from the present news i heard about the other j1s. It's going to be hard, but i'm going to try harder!
going through a tremendous change. it's difficult but i'll go stronger out of it.
waiting by the river|`