12/27/2008
4:32 pm
was tidying up my room wif my sis and found this watch she won at some company event last year.
It's still working and it's brand new. So she gave it to me.
Since there's no more dance practice anymore, so I can wear it almost all the time.
It's a mechanical watch so there's a somewhat noisy ticking noise.
In a way that noise was all too familiar, I don't know why though.
Although it is noisy, I like the way it goes tick, tick, tick......
It is just ever so calming.
Strangely though, there's no real reason to it.
Perhaps the constant ticks brings some order and sense of control to myself.
maybe?
However as soon as I started thinking,
I became anxious..
isn't every tick means that a second has gone by,
wasted...
The rate of the ticking sounds became faster now
The sense of tranquility that the watch brought me was gone.
It only happened because I was self-conscious.
Amazing how, something could have such opposite effects depending on self-awareness.
waiting by the river|`