I walk my way

3/02/2012
9:50 pm

I feel so lethargic..

I realised, I'm still very intimidated around strangers, especially foreigners. o.O bleh.. I should just say what's on my mind without thinking too much, even though if they may be stupid things.

I usually have no opinion and I just go along with everyone. But that's not true. Sometimes I do have things that I think about but I quickly toss those thoughts aside thinking that they are stupid, not intelligent, wrong, so I don't have a strong opinion in the end. Next time, I will say out what's on my mind, no matter how puny or how small I think it is. It should help myself in being more individualistic and having my own view right?? o.O がんばります

I think that I really owe a few big time friends for making me what I am now. I'm really grateful to them. Sometimes it's really the small things that they do(which they may do to all their friends) but it really make a big difference to me, either by changing my personality for the better, or causing me to make a decision that I am really glad to have made right now(like starting to learn Japanese) and giving me the courage to take up a challenge that would change my life(be it better or worse) which I otherwise won't try to take. I'd really owe it to these few friends. I know maybe I have drifted apart from 1 or 2 of them but I'll never forget what they mean to me. And as much as possible, I want to maintain(or maybe improve) the close relationships that I have with these important people.

waiting by the river|`